I feel like I am going to work everyday lately. Though I don’t get paid, I want to make my website and blogs available to those who need to hear my message. Who knows, I may be the only one who needs this and that is okay. First and foremost, I will always write for me. If others read my work that is fantastic.
Working has made me feel better about myself. My house may fall apart around me, but I feel accomplished. I miss going to work, but I cannot drive myself with Meniere’s and Migraines that are so unpredictable that I wouldn’t be able to be a good employee. Writing at home takes the stress out of it. I am not under any pressure to complete anything. Since I have no payoff, and no one to let down, I can work at my own pace.
If I need to rest, it doesn’t matter if I take an afternoon nap or indeed if I stay there until the next morning. Such as the life of living with a chronic debilitating disease. Yes, this does happen to me.
As I sit here writing this, waves of dizziness flow through my head. It isn’t easy to describe it, but it’s like I get dizzy in the back of my head and it moves toward the front on my head. It’s brief, annoying and makes me glad I am sitting down. I get these and mini spins too frequently for comfort. Oh, and I’ve had 3 drop attacks in 2 weeks. My drop attacks, I get slammed backwards. It is unsettling and makes me not want to be out by myself.
So, here I am working. I did manage to put some chicken in the crockpot for dinner. Now, to figure what to go with it. It’s unhealthy, but I would just eat the meat and no vegetables, but I am cooking for others, so I guess I will get something together.
I have enjoyed working on my website and blog. What will I do when I no longer need to work on them? When I don’t have any more ideas? I already repeat myself too much, but I guess maybe if I say it different it’ll be okay.
I hope you are spin free!
Love, Peace and Light! Rita