One of the first symptoms people with chronic illnesses often get is Depression. Depression is common. More common than most people know. It’s not always a constant sense of hopelessness nor that deep despair. If it is then you have major depression or clinical depression and what I write might not help without medical care as well.
Sometimes I don’t even recognize that I am in a depression, until I am fully in one. Some signs that I need to be more aware of for me are moodiness, an over or under reaction to situations, sleeping too much and not feeling rested or not sleeping much at all, and finally not feeling the joy of living. If you know me that should be a big indicator that all is not well in My Crazy Life.
Some of the types of depression:
- Major Depressive Disorder (MDD)
- Persistent Depressive Disorder or Dysthymia
- Bipolar Disorder
- Postpartum Depression
- Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD)
- Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)
- Atypical Depression
- Bipolar Depression
If you have depression like me… It comes and goes. I think it’s Persistent Depressive Disorder or Atypical Depression, though technically I have been diagnosed with Clinical Depression. Mine is manageable most of the time. When it’s not I take anti-depressants. Many people get depression from situations or it might be a chemical imbalance in your brain.
I can generally work my way out a depression cycle by keeping busy. Meditation and Relaxation are effective tools that work for me in my continued wellness. In the past when I have not been able to get the fog to lift, I have sought medical attention and asked for medication. Well, the first time my PCP told me to take it.
Though I didn’t want to… He said, “Now Rita, if you came to me with a sinus infection and I told you that medication would make you better. Would you take it?” I nodded. “Well, I am telling you to take this and it will make you feel better.”
So, I did. You know what the fog that I had been living in, lifted. I didn’t realize until that moment how much depression affected my view of the world. Colors were more vibrant without the depression to cover them up. I guess what I am saying is do whatever you have to… To put the color back into your life. That is why I love blue sky days.
It’s not always easy digging myself from the abyss, but it can be done. With a little bit of help at times (sometimes a kick in the pants) and mindfulness, I am able to get myself out of depression. Now I see the blue skies… I enjoy hearing the sounds of nature… I enjoy living… I make myself get up daily. I meditate, eat breakfast and do something I enjoy. I get out of the house when I can. That’s not always easy with dizziness. I go on trips and I love my life. Sometimes, it’s a lot of work, but it’s worth it.
I hope you have a blue sky day and are spin free.
Love, Peace and Light! Rita