The Price of Fun

Last night we attended a Vegas Golden Knights game. (We lost in overtime.) Before the game we went to McMullen’s for dinner. McMullens takes you to the game in a bus for free. Only 3 couples on the early bus.

We remained the entire game. Walked down a flight of stairs and out the door. Our bus was right there. How lucky can we get?

When we got back to McMullen’s we decided to have a Guinness. We found seats at the bar and ordered our drinks.

One drink turned into 2 while we listened to the band, I think they were Darby O’Gill and the Little People or something like that. They were dressed old fashioned in bowler hat, top hats and newsboy hats along with vest and button up shirts and jackets. I wish I’d gotten a picture of them.

We got back home as the clock struck twelve, so our carriage didn’t turn into a pumpkin until after we were tucked inside our home. It took a bit to unwind.

This morning I am paying the price. I am in a true fibro flare. My balance is totally shot. My tinnitus is loud. That is the price I pay for having fun even though I didn’t do much walking thanks to the bus dropping us almost at the door.

Was it worth it? Yes! One hundred percent. I won’t stop living because I have chronic illnesses. Live on the good days, rest on the bad days. Occasionally, push through on the so-so days for things that are important.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Listen To Your Body

Most people can ignore tiredness. However, when you have a chronic illness you need to listen to your body. Occasionally you may choose not too, but there will be consequences.

For instance yesterday I was dizzy. I decided to listen. I took a Valium and it knocked me out for a few hours. Listening to my body stopped me from having vertigo.

I don’t always listen. I do push myself when I am having a so-so day. I have to weigh what the consequences will be if I push.

When at home, it’s better to rest. However, if I am out doing things, I will push through even though I know I will probably have to stay in bed the next day or so. But it’s worth it to live my life to the best of my ability.

Rest on the bad days and live on the good days and sometimes on the so-so days.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Hiatal Hernia

My hiatal hernia is starting to cause me more problems. I will need to get it taken care of soon. Eating hurts.

According to the Mayo Clinic: A hiatal hernia occurs when the upper part of your stomach bulges through the large muscle separating your abdomen and chest (diaphragm).

Your diaphragm has a small opening (hiatus) through which your food tube (esophagus) passes before connecting to your stomach. In a hiatal hernia, the stomach pushes up through that opening and into your chest.

A small hiatal hernia usually doesn’t cause problems. You may never know you have one unless your doctor discovers it when checking for another condition.

But a large hiatal hernia can allow food and acid to back up into your esophagus, leading to heartburn. Self-care measures or medications can usually relieve these symptoms. A very large hiatal hernia might require surgery.


Most small hiatal hernias cause no signs or symptoms. But larger hiatal hernias can cause:

  • Heartburn
  • Regurgitation of food or liquids into the mouth
  • Backflow of stomach acid into the esophagus (acid reflux)
  • Difficulty swallowing
  • Chest or abdominal pain
  • Feeling full soon after you eat
  • Shortness of breath
  • Vomiting of blood or passing of black stools, which may indicate gastrointestinal bleeding

Love, Peace and Light! Rita


Tinnitus Awareness Week begins today.

Tinnitus is the one symptom that I have lived with every day for over 20 years. Mine sounds like cicadas interspersed with a menagerie of other sounds intermittently. Fortunately most of the time it’s cicadas.

In addition to hearing loss, the tinnitus muffles sounds. Throw in background noise and all bets are off if I can hear people around a table speaking. Now we contend with masks and I don’t understand half of what is said. I never realized that I read lips until I could no longer see them.

Tinnitus isn’t the same for everyone. The sounds are different. I occasionally get test tone sounds and a helicopter sound, talking, music stuck on the same track on top of the cicadas. It makes it difficult to hear, sleep or function at times.

If I ingest too much salt my tinnitus becomes so loud that I cannot hear anything. I don’t measure my salt intake. I just don’t add salt to anything I prepare. I get enough salt by eating out, and in processed food. So far I haven’t had any problems with my method.

I haven’t found anything else to quiet the noise. I have coping mechanisms. At night I play sleep sounds. My current favorite is rain on a tin roof. Alexa asks me what sound I want to hear when I say, “Alexa, good night.” Ralph bought me a portable usb sleep sound device for Christmas. This will be traveling with me. Though my phone & YouTube can fill in.

I listen to music or have television on when I am alone or when I write. This makes my tinnitus less noticeable. As does the sleep sounds. Don’t get me wrong I can still hear my tinnitus even in the loudest situations, I just have something else to focus on.

In settings that are too loud or I am tired, my tinnitus has given me the chipmunk effect. Everyone sounds like chipmunks to me. This used to happen when I was drunk, but I no longer have to be drunk for it to happen. I can wear earplugs to concerts or loud events and that stops the chipmunk effect.

One thing people should know when speaking to someone hearing impaired and who has tinnitus is that it’s helpful to look directly at the person. Turning your head away when speaking means that I won’t hear what you’re saying. I find myself guilty of this faux pas too. I try to be mindful when speaking to others hearing impaired or not. It’s a good habit to get into.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

It’s Time Again

With the rise in Covid cases with the new variants, it’s time to talk about anxiety. Anxiety is a real or imagined threat in which the responses to the threat are exaggerated. Most of the time anxiety is a normal response to things. However, when it stops you from being able to do things it can be a problem.

What Can You Do?

  • Recognize the symptoms- this may vary from person to person.

Signs and Symptoms

  1. Feeling restless, wound-up, or on-edge.
  2. Being easily fatigued.
  3. Having difficulty concentrating; mind going blank.
  4. Being irritable.
  5. Having muscle tension.
  6. Difficulty controlling feelings of worry.
  7. Having sleep problems, such as difficulty falling or staying asleep, restlessness, or unsatisfying sleep
  • Breathe- I find that by mindfully concentrating on slowing my breathing helps.
  • Sensory Exercise – the picture below is one of my favorites. These types of exercises distract the mind.
  • Take time out. – I like to walk, read or listen to music. Just spending time by myself to regroup is helpful.
  • Exercise
  • Sleep
  • Eating Healthy

These last three things are helpful for a variety of reasons. I don’t know that they actually help with anxiety.

  • Count to 10 – once again this distracts the mind.
  • Medication- I take anti anxiety medication and it helps prevent panic attacks most of the time.
  • Face your fear- sometimes it’s helpful to get out amongst others. This is one of the things I decided long ago… I will not let my anxiety interfere with living my life. Too often the buildup of emotions is harder than actually meeting a friend for lunch or going to that event with a lot of maskless people. Once I am at the event, I find it’s not so bad.
Ralph and I at the Vegas Golden Knights game last week.

It’s not always easy to ignore anxiety symptoms. For instance mine will give me an upset stomach. It’s difficult to leave my bathroom let alone go out. I try to avoid canceling things due to my anxiety. I find that once I am out and about that I have fun. The anxiety told me I wouldn’t.

I hope the helps. Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Sick and Tired

I truly am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have had this upper respiratory thing going on for over a month. My doctor put me on a Z-Pak and prednisone. While my sinuses are much clearer, I am fatigued and dizzy.

I don’t know if the Meniere’s is acting up or if it’s a side effect of the steroid. I’ve been blaming it on the latter. The one thing I can’t blame it on is Covid. At least every test I’ve had since November has been negative.

I have been spending a lot of time resting just so I have energy to do one thing a week. I am glad I have that luxury. Just little things tire me out.

On the bright side I am sleeping. Maybe not at all the correct times, but I am getting my rest. I guess this is the part where I rest on the bad days and live the good days. With a little of living on the so-so days or after I have rested.

We went to a hockey game last night, but my costochondritis acted up as well as the fatigue so I didn’t enjoy it as much as I normally do.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Ghost Walk

My husband booked a Boulder City Ghost Walk for us and friends. It was an interesting diversion. We learned some history and heard about the ghosts who haunt the area.

It was a beautiful evening for it. Well, it may have been a tad chilly once the sunset. Still it was a dark night that can fool one into seeing ghosts.

The most unusual thing that happened on this tour was that I felt we were being followed. Indeed, when I looked there was a witch following us around on the tour. Our tour guide didn’t seem put out by the interloper so I assumed she was with him.

He put on a great show.

During this 60 minute stroll through the historic downtown Boulder City we learned about the men who died building the Hoover Dam & why they still haunt us, a black ghost dog, a wife who murdered her husband before being captured and of course you can’t take a haunted tour in Nevada with mentioning UFO’s and aliens.

It was a nice evening out with friends.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita


If you escape into books like I do, I recommend C. Vonzale Lewis series. Lineage is the first in the series. It’s on sale for $1.99 on Amazon Kindle. Zealot, the second book in the series, comes out next month. The third book, Tribe, will come out next year, hopefully.

I love this fast paced series. If you like magic and immortal gods, this is definitely for you.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

That Feeling in my head.

Having Meniere’s Disease I have different stages of symptoms. They don’t hit in any order for me.

1. Off balance- most days

2. Tipsy- aside from a drunk feeling sometimes, I tip frequently.

3. Mini Spins- these are frequent and annoying, but not necessarily debilitating.

4. Full blown vertigo attack- non-stop vertigo that lasts for hours. Fortunately, these episodes are fewer and far between.

5. Dizziness – this is a regular occurrence.

6. Then there’s that feeling in my head that I can’t quite describe. It doesn’t feel right, but I cannot explain it. It’s kind of like being dizzy or having a headache, but not actually having either.

Today is one of those days for number 6. I don’t feel well, but I don’t feel that bad. It’s kind of like I am on the cusp of an attack that may or may not manifest.

I pushed myself this morning because my husband wanted to watch the Golden Knights practice. Mostly I sat in the arena. Yes, I look good. I hide behind my smile. It’s taken years of practice to achieve that.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Happy Holidays

Just here to wish everyone a happy holiday to you all! I hope your Christmas and anew year is stress free. I hope you all are happy and healthy. I realize many of us are chronically ill, but I wish you have good days.

Stay safe and avoid covid. My household, except my sister-in-law are negative. Jody’s almost finished with her infusion and is feeling better. The rest of us are negative and have zero symptoms.

Happy Holidays!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita