While we celebrate a major holiday today, remember that there are people who have a hard time during the holidays. I wrote a poem a few years back when I was in a depression that I want to share. You are not alone.
Is Anyone Listening?
I am screaming, but no one hears!
Tears roll down my face, but no one sees!
Do I have a voice?
Am I invisible?
Why are my desires less than yours? I have given all I can. There isn’t anymore. I feel empty. I feel drained.
I am no longer able to give. I feel like I am drowning in my pain and no one sees.
I am choking.
I can’t breathe.
I think I am dying a slow death. This must be what death feels like. No that’s not right. Death is a release from this pain.
I am tired of fighting through the fog. Though I know it’s only temporary. I am just wondering why you don’t see me?
It makes me wonder if I miss others pain. Does it make us uncomfortable? Does it make you uncomfortable? Do you feel as helpless as I do when I get into this hopeless state?
The next time you see me. Put your arms around me. Believe me all I need to know is that I am still here.
Depression is not easy to live with. I imagine it’s harder to see, but please don’t ignore it. I don’t want to disappear. I feel as if I have disappeared. -Rita L Smith
Let your loved ones know you are there for them. Smile at strangers. Just a small acknowledgment can change someone’s day.
Love, Peace, Light and Happy Holidays from Ralph and me.
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