No Motivation

Since I don’t have PT, I have no motivation to get up and start moving in the mornings. I am always tired (yet my sleep is poor) and the fatigue is high.


I think that depression is slipping in. It’s being subtle. Or maybe not so subtle if I examine the clues. I am irritable. I am unable to concentrate on one thing for longer than 15 minutes. I really don’t want to leave the house, though Ralph keeps scheduling things.

I want to relish the cooler temperatures, but the air quality has made it difficult. I can’t breathe.

The most frustrating thing is the inability to think straight. My thoughts don’t always come easily when I am trying to say something or even when I am just thinking to myself. And things are getting messed up in my mind.

Anxiety is worse. The other night I woke up in a panic because my mask wasn’t on. I couldn’t find it anywhere. It took me several minutes to realize I don’t wear one to bed and I still felt like I was missing something important. It was so weird.

I don’t feel like myself. Since I am used to living with depression and anxiety that is saying something. I may have to ask my doctor for an antidepressant in addition to the anti anxiety medication I am on.

Sometimes I need a bit of help to get through these things. It doesn’t help that the world has changed so my normal has changed. I really may just need a vacation, which I cannot go on with my anxiety being so out of control while this pandemic is still happening.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Published by My Crazy Life

My husband, Ralph, and I are on an amazing adventure together. We’d like to share our life with you. We are determined to enjoy our life despite my health issues. I have Ménière’s Disease, migraines, asthma, Fibromyalgia, Lichen Sclerosis and osteoarthritis. My goal is to help others see they too can lead a wonderful life.

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