I know I am luckier than most people who have my diagnoses. I have good days. Sure I have had lots of bad days when I thought I was going to die. You know what? I didn’t! And now I have more good days than bad ones.
That is not to say I am the carefree girl I was pre chronic illness. I still need to be careful not to overdo things. Otherwise I will pay big time. It took me a few days to get back to my normal after a day trip to Death Valley this past weekend. Now I am just in my normal amount of pain and not excruciating pain. Fatigue is normal once again. I didn’t fall asleep at 6 pm.
Maybe I just refuse to give in to the daily pain. I have fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis in various areas not to mention that pinched nerve in my neck that caused so much trouble. I know if I give in, I will be doing myself a disservice. I found out it was a mistake not to use my left arm. It took two months of therapy to be able to almost raise it again. I continue to be able to move it more everyday though not without pain.
That old term “Move it or lose it…” has taken on a whole new meaning for me.
I will keep living as long as I can. I know that I am luckier than most. I thank God for his Grace. No, I don’t question, “Why me?” I know that if I didn’t have these problems, I wouldn’t be able to inspire others. I wouldn’t be me.
Love, Peace and Light! Rita