I am waking up in panic during the night. I am sure it’s due to my upcoming trip to Anastasia Island. Normally a vacation excites me… but in the midst of a pandemic I am frightened.
This is where we will be staying. This picture is taken from the private walk leading from the house to the beach. That’s my husband standing there.
It’s not like we’ll have to “people”! Just us, Ralph’s brother & his wife and Ralph’s cousin, who owns this beautiful home. But there is the airports to get through… This is Florida and we’ll have to be on a plane or two (4 if you count the return flight) with strangers.
Hence the panic attacks. We’ve been planning this vacation for over a year. Plane tickets are purchased… Still I can’t get up any excitement. Just mild panic at the thought of leaving my bubble. I have been thinking it’s time to shelter in again…
Still with views like this, it’s hard to pass up. Watching the dolphins play in the water was so much fun. It really is relaxing. Still we have to get there.
I think that is what’s been causing the panic attacks. The anti anxiety medication isn’t blocking them.
My husband had an attack the other night too. He’s one of the easiest going people. Not much bothers him. The pandemic is getting to normally healthy people. Check in on your loved ones and anyone you care about. These are trying times emotionally.
Those of us who have problems normally, be kind to yourself now… it’s okay to be scared. It’s okay to cancel plans. Be kinder to those who we normally rely on. Realize their moodiness is probably the result of stress.
They don’t know how to handle this kind of emotional stress. Sure they adapt well to work stress, but this is new to everyone. Totally unprecedented. It plays on emotions that many people haven’t had to deal with… Fear of not being able to work. Not due to illness or disability, but do to a crashing economy.
We all need to be kinder to ourselves, to our loved ones, to our friends and to strangers! Be safe!
Love, Peace and Light! Rita