Depression is a mood disorder, we cannot control it and the severity is different for everyone. Read here about major depressive disorder.
I am lucky, because for the most part I am happy. It took work to get where I am. Much of it came from working on myself.
Steps I took toward happiness.
1. I learned to meditate. Meditation has been a life saver for me as it allows me to connect with myself on a deeper level.
2. I say the Serenity Prayer whenever I feel out of control.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
The Serenity Prayer reminds me that I can only change myself, not others and some circumstances are out of my control. I am still working on not reacting badly in certain situations. Depression makes it difficult.
3. Think positively about myself. This is perhaps one of the hardest things to do, because I am working on a lifetime of bad habits. Writing a list of all my positives and negatives helped. I could see on the negative side it was mostly about my perception about myself. The positive side was my accomplishments. In order to change my self image, I began simply by saying something nice about me in the morning upon waking and before I slept. Just two things helped me love myself more.
4. Loving myself. This is a really important thing in finding happiness. Until, I started to love myself, my happiness was dependent on others and situations. No amount of love from my husband (second husband) helped me to love myself. I had to do that all by myself. Changing my thoughts was and is the biggest hurdle in loving me.
As I said I am a work in progress. Depression causes setbacks and I have to begin again. Old habits creep back in. I have to be diligent in these steps, especially as I spend much of my time alone while Ralph is at work. Not being able to drive when I am dizzy curtailed my singular adventures. Being afraid to venture out for a walk, because of drop attacks is another problem if I want to be by myself.
For the most part I am happy within myself. I like and love me and that for me has been the biggest step toward true happiness.
I hope you are spin free!
Love, Peace and Light! Rita